Fondue and Poekoelan

Continuing her tradition of kick-ass gifts, KT gave me a fondue set for my birthday. While she was in town this weekend, we decided to get together with Steve and Miles and have a fondue night. After we looked up how to make fondue on the web, we got the ingredients and managed to make a pretty good one! Thanks, KT!

Also, I finally managed to get the new design for Killing Machines posted. Hopefully now Steve will get the user login options coded up so that I can enable skins for journals, too.

KMorg v2

Having all this spare time is a little frustrating, because I feel motivated, but some things I just don’t have the resources to do right now. For instance, I would love to start doing Poekoelan (did I spell that right?) with Steve, but I can’t afford the classes (or health insurance) until I get a job. I’d also love to teach myself some programming, but I can’t afford any manuals, and my net connection isn’t good enough to just do it all online. Oh well… hopefully I’ll find a good job soon.

Oh, and I finally broke down and renewed spaceninja.com with Network Solutions. The domain transfer to joker.com got canceled AGAIN. This time, Network Solutions said it was because my account is not paid. So they want me to renew my account for a full year just so I can transfer it to another registrar and not use the services they want me to pay for. Joker emailed me and said that Network Solutions is denying transfers that they are supposed to be approving, and that I can possibly try the transfer again for free when Network Solutions stops breaking the rules. Ugh.

Fasting

mmm… real food.

i haven’t eaten real food in probably a month. i just started again, slowly, over the weekend. the past month has been a period of fasting for me, brought on by the interminable stress of the big financial question mark (eg, am i gonna get any money at all for my efforts, or will i leave california completely broke?)..

this is not something i’d recommend to anyone. waking up in the morning, drinking juice and maybe eking down a piece of dry toast but more likely nothing, and then waiting all day long in a kind of daily-business paralysis to hear some news (good or bad, either way would’ve been nice).. you of course don’t want to drive your car to exciting places to meet interesting people when, if it broke down or even just needed a petrol-refill, you likely wouldn’t be able to afford it.

but i got some money today, and more should be on its way soon (wednesday?).. mailed off my rental app at the 735 st clair, too.

let’s keep our fingers crossed, knock on wood, toss the salt over the proper shoulder, etc- and hope things will settle out soon :)

Struggling to Get Paid

the past 72 hours have been stranger than i could ever have imagined.

being strung along for pay by my company (they’re now a month late) was irritating and stressful.. until i talked with my coworker at length, and things came to new light. basically, no matter how fucked you think you might be by not getting paid, some people elsewhere could be looking at jail time as a result of not getting paid.. and that’s a much scarier prospect. i won’t say more than that, but i basically do not worry for my own situation anymore.. _i_ will still be just fine…..

when i decided that i couldn’t wait to be paid any longer, that it wouldn’t happen any time soon, when i actually committed to finding an alternative to _my job_ for being paid and have started to make other arrangements, now the news is that they’ve actually struck a deal and are receiving actual honest-to-god money. yoink. if they do get their money, then i’m set, and if they don’t, then i won’t be as comfortable, but things’ll still go all right.

it’s like the universe was waiting for me to "get" that- that i’d need to be able to get myself out of this mess without asking for (and receiving- lord knows i’ve hoped) a miracle. and who knows, maybe they’ll never actually be able to pay me the $10k they owe me.. but if they do now, bonus.

jessica was very nice last night, too, which caught me totally off guard. it’s uncharacteristic for her to be nice when she doesn’t stand to benefit directly.. but it was very pleasant, and after the events of the previous few days it sort of tied things up in a way i’m happy with.

they laughed at me, wanting you.. said it would be "hello, good-bye"
but ooh, you came through, now they’re eating humble pie..
they all said we’d never get together; darling, let’s take a bow..
for ho, ho, ho- who’s got the last laugh now!

Moving Back to Portland

We might be moving back to Portland this summer, instead of next summer, as we had originally planned. The situation here is a lot rougher than either of us had thought it would be. The job market is terrible. Annie’s still unemployed, and my boss has cut my hours back so much that we’re barely able to cover bills. After my money from the Myst3 job runs out, we won’t be able to cover them unless Annie finds a source of income. So that’s one reason. In addition, Annie is “not excited” about school next year. She says that it might make sense to move back to Portland, because then she could do Americorps for another year, and then finish up school down there, at PSU. And on top of all that, we can’t deny that one of the reason is that nearly all of our friends are moving this summer. Urn and Kat will be leaving, and so will Eric and Jill. Becky and Jessi will still be here, but we barely see them anyway.

We talked about it for a long time last night, and it’s sounding better each time we talk. The only problem is that unless the money situation improves a lot, and quickly, enabling us to get some money saved, when we move back, we won’t actually have enough money to move into an apartment right away. We’ll probably have to move into my parent’s house for a little bit while we both find jobs and get enough money cached to pay first month’s rent, plus security and cleaning deposit.

We still need to check a few things out, like if moving early breaks our lease, or if we can just take off in the summer, and whether Annie can get another job in Americorps. Still, the job market in Portland is so much better than here, that even if we both had to take crummy mall jobs or something, we’d be okay. Plus, Portland means that I could try to get a graphic design job, or even get involved in web design!

It’s all still up in the air, and basically it’s Annie’s decision, but we’re checking out our options.

In addition to all that, I finally realized that my cousin Deni married the lead singer of the Ataris, a band that I like. When my family told me that Deni had married a rock star, I kinda rolled my eyes, and even when I met him, I didn’t place the name of the band. But Annie and I were on the radio and played two songs by his band that I know, and love! So suddenly it all fell into place! Cool!

Jester called me and told me he has no idea why my second check from the Myst3 job hasn’t gotten to me, and that he also has no idea why the themes aren’t up on the site yet. Apparently both should have been done quite a while ago. As soon as I know what’s up, I’ll post about it.