So as thrilled as I am to have a job now, I have to admit that it destroyed my idea for a halloween costume. I was just going to show up wearing a nice shirt and tie. Business Casual kind of thing. I can see how it would go now:
KT: What are you supposed to be?
Scott: I’m gainfully employed!
Get it? Because I was unemployed, so I was pretending to have a job? Funny, huh?
Yeah, okay. Annie didn’t think it was funny either.
I’m better now! for lack of less touchy-feely language, “I’ve had some really positive healing experiences” since then. I go back to the doc tomorrow so hopefully I can go back to work soon. keep your fingers crossed!
“Hey, this is 88.1 FM, The ‘Burg, Your Music Central. It’s 11:30 in the morning, I’m Obeso the Pirate, and you just heard “Come Back Down To Earth” by Luscious Jackson. Before that was “The Passenger” by Iggy Pop and “Paper-Thin Walls” by Modest Mouse. Coming up, I’ve got music from the Ataris, Hooverphonic and Sleater-Kinney. If you’ve got anything you wanna hear, you can call our request line at 963-2311, or go online at www.881theburg.com. I’ve got a few quick messages before I kick you back into the music with “Judith” by A Perfect Circle, so keep it here.”
I miss that. Who wants to start a radio station with me?
sooo… my plan is not proceeding according to plan. I’m getting pathetically housebound, because if I go anywhere I have to rely on other people to get me around , ’cause the two days I went a few places on buses I nearly had a breakdown. On thursday I went to do some office work for the No Ivy League, which meant walking a few blocks on either side of the bus stop, which I thought would be fine because the doc said to walk a “little” bit. I walked a few blocks more in the afternoon after having lunch with scott & steve, but then I broke down on a street corner waiting for a bus to take me to a meeting at work. I was like ten blocks from home and I had to call a taxi, it was insane. I got home and fell apart on scott. this was the first time since I got hurt that I really lost it.
I’ve pretty much been on the couch or in bed since except for a couple trips out yesterday to go to get my food stamps butt early on friday morning, which scott’s mom got up early to take me to, (thanks Annie!) and to meet my new doc in town, which the lady across the street took me to. (thanks Debbie!) apparently I’m not to be trusted out on my own anymore. I’ve rented lots of movies, but am not motivated to do much more than that. I’m afraid I’m slipping into a more depressive state than I’ve been in in a long time.
I’ve basically been in bed all day except to go to fred meyers but what that really means is that scott did the shopping while I sat in starbucks contemplating my situation. (hee hee! scott just kissed me!) he’s in the kitchen making my broke-ass dinner. he’s awesome.
I guess the problem is that I have to adjust to the violent turn my life has taken and I don’t want to, so consequently I’ve been irritable and moping around feeling like shit because I don’t want to adjust my life to injury again, I’m supposed to be done with that. I was out working and learning and feeling awake and capable, and BAM! back to whiny depressive status again. this is NOT what was supposed to happen this year, I’m supposed to be getting stronger, and dancing and working, not wallowing in the narrow pit of pain.
I think I understand that whole mind -body connection with injury, because I’m having to really struggle with not letting this injury overwhelm me and take primary focus in my life. which of course is extremely difficult as anyone who’s been injured knows. If I can stay above water then I can figure out a way to take care of myself emotionally and physically in a balanced way so I can heal and move on. Right now there just seems to be an undertow that keeps trying to take me back to post-car accident mode.
I guess I’ll have to keep swimming.
I am absolutely stunned. For a few months now, I’ve been discovering that some of my websites don’t render correctly on Netscape. Now, like any web designer, I’m aware that none of the major browsers render HTML exactly according to the standards, let alone CSS. So I chalked it up to IE being slightly ahead in the browser wars and blamed Netscape for not being standard-compliant. However, I recently found out that Mozilla also has some problems with some of my sites. This is cause for alarm, since Mozilla’s major feature is an HTML rendering engine that is supposedly 100% compliant. I did a little detective work and found out that all of the bugs could be blamed on Netscape except for one thing. There’s an odd bug that shows up in the way some table cells are rendered on Mozilla (as well as Netscape) that I couldn’t explain away. My code appeared to be correct. Tonight, I stumbled across the answer while working on a new site for work.
There is no HEIGHT attribute for tables or table cells in HTML
Everyone uses height tags in their tables. It’s common practice. But while checking my manuals, I found out that it’s a non-standard tag. There’s a width attribute, but no height attribute. WHY? THIS MAKES NO SENSE.
I stumbled onto this because Netscape would render table cells set to HEIGHT=100% way too large, as if it was setting it to 100% of the screen size, rather than 100% of the space available. And in some circumstances, Netscape would ignore the HEIGHT attribute altogether. IE would render it with 100% of the space available. Mozilla would ignore the height tag altogether in all circumstances. So Netscape and IE had different ways of dealing with this non-standard tag, and Mozilla was the only one doing things the way it was supposed to. The only problem is that suddenly I’m left without a tag that I’ve been using frequently.
And there’s no substitute! Let’s say you want to position an element in the middle of the screen, no matter what size window the viewer has. CSS allows for exacting control over elements, but it will not accept general terms like align right or left or center. You have to enter exact distances from the top left corner. To get around this you need tables. Well, you can set the table cell to 100% width and height, and then align to the center both vertically and horizontally. Well, according to the HTML specs (and therefore, according to Mozilla), you can do that horizontally, but not vertically.
I love web design. It is my passion. But I swear, if anything ever drives me insane someday, it’s going to be things like this.